...BRILLIANT BOY...

If this ain't bragworthy I don't know what is...
J-Bug, brilliant boy, handsome Mister Man, and all around love of my life just READ!!!
Yuppers...two full-on sentences!
And no, we're not talking Easy Reader here...this was words...with syllables!
I was in the bathroom picking at my face (bad habit I know) and I heard him in the other room...ran out, made him read it again, and then had him read another one.
I think my heart might actually burst...there's this pride pressure rapidly expanding from the inside out...
We totally did the happy dance...full out...
And then called everyone and anyone and bragged!!!
We're totally getting Mister Man his own library card today!

...support (system) crash...

When's the last time you looked at your life...the day to day daily aspect of it...as a computer program? Not yesterday, last week, ever? Yeah.

Well let's look at mine that way for a moment. There's the preloaded software, right? The daily minutiae...sleep, wake, eat, dress, etc... And then there's all those fancy programs I uploaded: family, work, social life, etc... And then...then there's the viruses, and auto-loads, and lurking-in-the-shadow html: autism, homeschooling, single parenting, estrangement, dating, etc...

See where I'm going yet?

Programs fail. They crash. They auto-delete. They re-script themselves.

And sometimes, when that happens, you never get your original material back. Sometimes, when that happens, data is lost forever. Sometimes, when that happens, the future gets re-written.



I'm all for learning new things. And I think the one thing I need to learn pronto is how to write script into my program for a backup device. I need to create a support system. Because right now the two people that I can guarantee will answer my call no matter what the hour live 8 hours away.

...rain down on me...

The weather this spring has certainly done it's best to put a damper on any hopes of enjoying what I had hoped would be a beautiful east coast season. From the bone-chilling cold and damp to full on rain, it's been a soggy mess this year. And sadly, to often, my mood has matched the weather.
There have a lot of difficult adjustments, and it seems like the hits just keep on coming. I'm not really inclined to write to much in depth, especially in such a public forum. Suffice it to say, months after having left Ohio I don't feel I've made much progress. A lot of decisions I made could have been handled differently, and I'm second-guessing myself a great deal.
I have to keep looking forward, and sometimes that's so hard...the past and even the present seem to intrude and overwhelm.